I once read a book called Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. The author, whether knowingly or not, challenged the reader to question their own reality. And I did.
It was not long after reading this that I left a job and a state (and my wife eventually left me, making this a country song) to find something better. That something better came along. Both personally and professionally.
However, I think that piece of my life has now ended, and I am back on the search again. Not saying I am leaving this part of my life, nor the elements of it, because I am not. But, the results of that search have completed. It is time for a new search. Trouble is, I am not sure what it is I need to find, nor do I fully know what it is I have lost.
The things I do know that I have lost are my creativity, my spontaneity, my philosophy, and my writing. The culmination of these lost pieces of my being probably is my search. However, it's the loss of my writing, of which I probably miss the most, that has caused me to lose the other aspects of my life.
So here it is, the beginning, a new endeavor, to write once more. To challenge what is in my mind; to challenge what is in my soul; to examine the crossroads.
I am bridging to my new writing project from a poem I wrote several years past. Not because it is one of my stronger pieces, but because of the meaning it has to this search.
Clouds
I looked
through the clouds.
One eye
saw the sun,
the other
was blind.
One eye
saw tomorrow,
the other
saw the bitter end.
The fear,
yet the anticipation.
The end,
yet the beginning.
And I looked
through the clouds
once more
and there was hope.
One eye
saw the sun.
The other
saw the brilliance.
I'm seeking out the brilliance. Yes, that is what I am looking to discover. The brilliance...EjG
